Update: That Goddamn Optimist

I did not get up the courage to say anything to him. Oh well.

That Goddamned Optimist

So, That Goddamn Optimist is online but I don't know if I should talk to him. On one hand, if i don't we'll see each other at con and it will be hella awkward. On the other hand, if I talk to him now it's still going to be awkward and I don't really know how to explain how I feel.

Something like, Dear That Goddamn Optimist:

We are suppose to be friends, but we never talk. Even after I expressed my feelings about this to you, this did not change, though you promised that it would. I am insecure and I admit it. You are good at reassurance but bad at following up. That Goddamn Optimist, it's not okay for you to just talk to me about Best Friend. I want more from you that that, I'm just too shy to ask for it.

Con

Con was amazing. Met Cute Canadian Boy. Hung out with That Lesbian. The Goddamn Optimist wasn't there, which is probably good considering our last conversation. He didn't really like being called out on how he hadn't talked to me in weeks--and when he finally did it was to get information on Best Friend. I know he has the hots for her still and it's nice and all, but I really thought that I meant more to That Goddamn Optimist than just a source of information. At least, I was hoping. So he's kind've hurt my feelings but I'll probably end up apologizing anyway.

Uhm, what else?

Hat Stealer was supposed to come but didn't. Game Looser was there and told a ton of jokes. Dead baby jokes. Yeah. People from my youth group came--three beside me: Musical Boy, Fencing Girl, and Sharpie Chick. Sharpie Chick used to be Minister's Daughter in previous entries not posted here, but she is now Sharpie Chick due to the extreme amounts of drawing people did on her legs and arms with sharpie. It looked really cool.

Lots of other stuff happened but I don't feel like sharing it just yet. Maybe later.